Thursday, December 31, 2009

Yesterday definitely improved in the late afternoon/evening. The class last night was a special candle lit class in honour of the new year, and it included chanting and meditation. The chanting was neat - the teacher guiding the class had a really beautiful voice, and everyone in the room (which was a lot, because the class was packed!) joined in.

For the meditation part, they had us all pick a word out of a bowl and then meditate about how that word is a part of our lives, and what it will mean to the year to come. I drew "obedience", and I'm still trying to wrap my head around how that word can influence my life in a positive sense. I mean, I think that I'm pretty obedient, generally. I fulfill my commitments, I work hard, I don't back out of things at the last moment. In fact, a lot of the time I feel like my problem is that I stretch myself too thin, trying to make everyone happy, and then I burn out.

So I'm trying to think of it as more of a "be obedient to my own path and the journey I want to be on, instead of getting sidetracked all the time". I don't know if this makes sense, and maybe it's a bit selfish, but it was the best I could come up with. Any other suggestions for possible interpretations?

3 comments:

Eco Yogini said...

yep, i like that interpretation. being true to your Self. :) not selfish at all, healthy.

Little Lotus said...

I think the word obedience is quite a negative one, I don't want to ever be obedient.

Maybe you are being too obedient,
Sometimes it is good to let go, stop obediently following your current path, instead take a walk on the grass or sand beside the path for a while, do what you want to do not what you ought to do.

hope you had a great new year :)

TINA VAUGHN said...

I like obedience to self...a healthy spin for sure :)

I also love this idea and because of reading your post yesterday, I was inspired to use the idea with my students last night (isn't that a poetic way of saying "I stole it"?)

Ah well. It WAS a beautiful meditation...to reflect upon how that particular word, be it grace, faith, love, hope, gratitude, etc. is present or absent from your life...how it might be kindled and sustained.

Thanks for sharing...as always.